Morning St. Well?
Are you well?
Fine thanks BB. Yourself?
Don't play that game. I don't exist and you know it. This is just an emotional check-up.
In that case everything is OK enough. Got over the sons leaving home stuff and trying to do a bit of taking stock. It would be a good time to move into a smaller house or flat, move on, apply for a ridiculous job that is clearly beyond me, push the barriers of writing a bit and do it full-time or just try and have a few months of the new normality. Might do all or none of the above.
New Kind of Christian?
Not that I can own up to.
Does it ever cross your mind that you could get in trouble for what you blog?
Well I try to avoid libel.
Yes but you hint at baring your soul from time to time then leave your vest on.
I don't really have a soul to speak of. Heart, guts, brains all present and correct, but I am pretty soulless if the truth be told.
Does that mean anything?
Not really. It's sort of words. Do you remember when Prince Charles got in trouble for responding to the question 'Are you in love?' with '...whatever being 'in love' means?'
I thought he was being a tosser at the time but now I get him. Still shouldn't have said it but we somehow have to conform to a standard of emotional life that means everyone can see how we function and what we are like. If people ask me how I'm feeling I make something up to keep them happy. I genuinely don't know.
So if I asked you to take your vest off.
If you insist.
Now what's there?
Tell me what you can see?
A bit of pent-up anger and the desire to hit a few people along with the wish you'd had more experience at hitting people. The desire to tell a few people you are fed up with them and the fear that they will stop liking you if you say so. The feeling that you've not really done as much with your life as you would have liked to for which there is probably a 27 syllable German word. Genuine warmth of personality that likes helping people to have happier lives. Annoyance that most people don't give life enough thought.
Wow. You can see all that?
How did I do?
Rubbish. I just want more money.
Oh I saw that; the vest was made of it.
And to play in a great band.
Put it on the things to do list and learn the difference between emotion and ambition.